Episode 5: Blackbird
Life is a choice, make a beautiful choices of your life!
The final episode of the opening from my story is here. It’s not about the final story chapter I wrote, but the meaning of it and also the journey about it. What I want to tell here is a deepfelt meaning to inspire others and help find the true self.
The Beginning
I remember it was a fine day as normal in usual day, but it was an unusual condition for the world at that time. It coincides with a global pandemic, the covid-19. As i shared in the previous episode, i use my time for searching my undiscovered myself. And i found my unseen potentials a lot.
Really enjoy every moment of my life but finding my true self is more challenging and there’s no end. So, this is the beginning of the journey of exploring the unseen world to feed my curiosity. The day that made me blew up and face unprecedented moments of my life.
I didn’t know where my path would lead — it could just as easily lead to tragedy as to paradise. Death and enlightenment were equal possibilities, and there was no way to predict which i might stumble upon first.
The Man has Disappeared
I open my laptop and set on my comfortable chair and am ready to search what possible i have to explore. Luckily the city i lived in, is still in a safe condition during government regulation about covid-19 protocols (PPKM). I started with local destinations which easily to reach. I pack my bag and ready to go after i found what i want to do.
I’m not an expert in any field. I just being bold and conduct myself by my intuition. I rarely react but i always notice because i don’t want my mind to feel bridled. Like The Beatles said, “Free as a bird”. But I have something else which most people don’t. I can confidently say that I have undergone an epic journey of self-discovery. I have spent many years in relentless pursuit of self-understanding. Instead of going the traditional route like most people, I went a different way. I went in search of answers to life’s most profound questions — who am I, what am I doing here, what’s the meaning of life? Questions that we don’t often ask ourselves, except perhaps in tragic circumstances and there’s always a way.
I have dedicated my entire adult life to this pursuit, and in so doing I have gained a kind of insight that cannot be obtained by merely studying philosophy or metaphysics. An insight that comes only from inquiring directly into the depths of one’s own mind. And i found it while on my longtime journey. Disappear for a while and challenge yourself to gain more perspective from the path have you chosen, which will lead you to the beautiful scenery.
The Journey
I’ve been through many cities in Java. For me, traveling was the best decision i’ve ever made in my life. Now or never is the perfect encouragement whip to my mind. Whether going alone or with your friends it doesn’t matter. The matter is the journey because a true journey brought you to decent experiences for learning to face the world through different perspectives.
My purpose is to learn from my experience and convert that experience into energy, kind of like a roller coaster at the top of a big drop. It takes that roller coaster tons of energy to reach the top of the hill, just like it takes a lot of willpower to change your life. And just when you’ve reached the top and you’re ready to make a move, fear immobilizes you. Your stomach tightens and your heart rate quickens. At this point, you have one of two options. You can either stay at the top and learn to live with vertigo at the edge of the precipice. Or you can throw your hands up in the air and enjoy the ride.
The first time i travelled, i didn’t learn a damn thing. I was too busy treating myself like a celebrity with an idealistic way to comfort my ego. Looking back, I realize that idealistic adventures are not good investments. You spend so much time trying to fit everything into your tiny schedule. The best way to gain more unexpected experiences is by being spontaneous. It doesn’t mean we don’t have any schedule or plan, but it can be used as urgent situations.
By being spontaneous it can open your mind widely to feel and react the real-field situations. You will gradually be able to feel your instincts working, all your sense are sensitive, your mind working hard, and your whole body completely moves. Action! Just action. Like Tom Cruise said to Milles Teller in Top Gun Maverick movie:
“Don’t Think, Just Do!”
Spontaneous taught me how to use and believe 100% my instinct works. because traveling really opens your true self through your potential. Why i can say this because I’ve felt it and a lot of perspectives I’ve collected and learned during traveling. The first time may be challenging and really pressure your blood. Don’t doubt yourself try to understand the meaning and think clearly. It is more helpful than doubting yourself.
This pattern can open your true self and you will shock about it as i did! You will know more about yourself and build up your confidence through what is in front of your eyes. Maybe it can make you confused at the beginning, but life must go on, and you have no choice being surrender.
Facing what’s on in front of our eyes can make us feel peaceful because of less overthinking. The main is we should do our best to face the reality in front of us.
It’s different between facing reality with giving up by conditions. Facing reality taught you to see the situation clearly. Thinking clearly makes us easier to take decisions towards the next step. It’s makes us growth. Grow our mindset, mentality, and the evolving way we think about the world.
People Comes and Go
Here’s a little glimpse the reality that we should accept if we choose to grow. The more we choose to grow, the more we will lose people who are not on the same page as us, and the more we will appreciate the presence of people who support us.
The presence of ourselves is more important rather than wasting our time to do something that not have huge impact in our life.
Sometimes, in my deep down inside my life it’s really hard that i lost some people who has been there for me in my journey. However, I realised that this is how the world works and I should accepted it.
Blackbird
This story is belonged to everybody who read this. Not only from my side but also for you who still finding your true self. I find myself thinking a lot about what I want in this short journey we call life. What’s a life worth living as defined by me and me alone? Am I getting closer to that or not? 23 is reflections and trial, but it’s not dumb either to trial. Am I making good use of the time I have left? Let’s always keep in mind just how precious life is, and how easy it is to let it drift by aimlessly! Maybe only by embracing its fleeting nature will we appreciate it to the fullest.
Like The Beatles said in their song:
Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these sunken eyes to learn to see
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to be free
Take yourself into the great journey and always learn from everything. Enjoy the journey and your life, it’s a gift!
